Blank Slate

I always have a reason to not do something.

What if I had a magic wand that took away all my pain. All my ailments. It just took away the headaches. The stomach aches. The foot pain. Back pain. It took away the trauma and anxiety. Etc. What then. Well then we have a blank slate. We have a blank canvas to work with. We are able to do things we love. We could date now. We could be bold and brave now. We wouldn’t have the excuses anymore. Am I right. When we hold onto the pain and suffering we are able to be attached to the past. We are in excuse mode. Well I don’t feel good so I can’t do that workout. Or I can’t meet someone for dinner. If I feel this way see. I can’t do that. Trust me I’m an expert in this. I’ve created my bubble. I’ve created my world. I am my own maker. I am my own worst enemy. So we have this wand. We take it all away. Poof you are healed. And you can breathe. You can relax. You can see hope. Now we’re getting up early. We are eating good food. We are nourishing our bodies with healthy habits. If I’m in a state of depression and I’m angry. I turn to comfort by eating foods that in the moment are satisfying me. I turn to staying up late. I blame it on my job because it’s tiring. I blame the physical part of it. So I eat the bad food. I satisfy that craving. And it’s like rinse and repeat. That causes the headache. The stomach ache. I sleep in. I get depressed. I go to work tired and then it all repeats. Granted life can be hard and stressful but we also make it that way. We make it complicated. When it’s actually super simple and easy. We deal with scary things but we always have the now to turn to. And just maybe we are clinging to that suffering.its all we know. It allows us to make excuses. To stay in our comfort zone. To say well see I’m not feeling well. So I can’t do xyz. We cling to it like a life line. But start asking yourself what would your future self want from you. There has to be a moment where you control the narrative and say enough is enough. If the pain in the body is really causing so much grief. Maybe it’s time to wave the wand. Maybe it would mean you have to get up early. Maybe it would mean you date again. Maybe it would mean you put yourself out there and take chances. Your sickness is real but it may just be something you created and manifested because you’re stuck in the past and you’re clinging to a safety net to protect you. Time to cleanse. Time to have a clean slate. Imagine it. Be a blank canvas and see what happens.